Love On The Brain

For as long as I could remember, love has always been love/hate for me. To feel the warmth and euphoria of being in love, looking into your partner’s eyes and feeling like you could take on the world, like nothing can stop you.

But when you’ve felt love’s sting as much as I have, you know there’s a darker side to it, one that turns you into a different person, one that makes you hesitant before you jump in head first.

It’s made me picky, made me a bit cynical, and it has inspired hundreds of stories, poems, scenarios, and it has discouraged the once self-proclaimed hopeless romantic.

But when it comes to you, I’m willing to try again. I don’t know if it’s the universe’s sense of humor or fate working it’s magic but the long forgotten high and euphoria of love is once again coming back.

Is it because it’s been a while since I’ve been in love? Is it because I’ve never felt love like this before?

It’s a crazy love, like the one where they’re in your head all day, and every moment spent with them is a hit of the world’s finest drug. It’s become an addiction, a torture that I have to endure everyday.

Have I done this to myself, keeping people from getting too close, or am I just letting my imagination run wild with hopes and dreams of the future.

If only life were like the movies, where all you needed was a stereo and a good love song, or a cheesy poem to proclaim your love.

Life is much harder than that, and nothing in life worth having comes easy.

So do I take the jump or do I stay on the boat and wait for the next time I feel like this?

I wish I had an answer but instead I’m just playing “what could be?” In my head.